Missing momma has had the GS for almost four months now. She is working and has all her babies with her. She is staying strong and keeping her family together and I am so proud of all she is doing to keep it together. She left my home and went to the near by city, of course GS is so happy to be with his mom, and I am so happy too!!!
I missed him so much, but he is where he belongs in his mother's loving arms. I am glad to be able to move on with my life also. I have a new job and have moved in with my aging mother. Life throws us so many curves and we have to be able to stay on the road, lol. Its a good thing I am a good driver.
I am glad my children are getting on with their lives even if I don't always like or agree with the direction they take, it is after all their lives, live in peace my babies!
Friday, January 14, 2011
Wednesday, August 11, 2010
A Fall From The Wagon
So I went home for the weekend, and in my heart I just knew something was wrong. We get home Sunday me and grandson. I took him with me so Missing Mom could work, took the baby to her father. When I spoke to her on Saturday she mentioned that the drunk family was there. I knew from that moment things would not be good. She calls me at work on Monday, telling me that she lost her job. Right away she tried to lie about why she lost her job, but I knew she was lying and confronted her about it. Yes she just never went to work! Instead she was getting HIGH! or so she says, but I believe she was drinking.
Her first thought to leave, to go to where my other daughter is and get applications for apts and jobs. I told her again I believe she needs to go to treatment. She just does not get it. So I have to prepare to take grandson away from her again, because the deal is she is here and he is here or she is gone and he stays here. I will not let him be at risk. I don't want to hold her hostage, but I am also not putting grandson at risk.
It so sad because he is so desperate for her love and attention. All he wants is for here to pay attention to her. I will pray for her to have the wisdom to do what is right.
Her first thought to leave, to go to where my other daughter is and get applications for apts and jobs. I told her again I believe she needs to go to treatment. She just does not get it. So I have to prepare to take grandson away from her again, because the deal is she is here and he is here or she is gone and he stays here. I will not let him be at risk. I don't want to hold her hostage, but I am also not putting grandson at risk.
It so sad because he is so desperate for her love and attention. All he wants is for here to pay attention to her. I will pray for her to have the wisdom to do what is right.
Thursday, July 22, 2010
All is Well On the Home Front
Things are going as good as they can at the moment. Missing Mama still here and working, taking care of her babies. She seems happy, and planning looking forward to her future taking it one step at a time. She is saving her money, trying to get her car running this weekend. Taking her job seriously, never late, never calling in.
The babies are happy. Grandson had an adjustment period. It took him awhile to get into the groove. He had a few meltdowns but is doing so much better now. He is just his happy go lucky self. He is growing so much, he is 3 1/2 now and is so fun to watch him grow and listen to how his little mind works.
I am doing much better now too. Its nice to have the littlest one here, she is barely a year and is soo soo cute. She does not walk yet and does not want to walk either!!! but she is a sweety, gives kisses says hi when she sees me. After a long weekend of camping I came home and she gave me a bear hug saying grrrr and she squeezed me tight. She learned that one from watching her brother.
I am enjoying being Unci!!!
The babies are happy. Grandson had an adjustment period. It took him awhile to get into the groove. He had a few meltdowns but is doing so much better now. He is just his happy go lucky self. He is growing so much, he is 3 1/2 now and is so fun to watch him grow and listen to how his little mind works.
I am doing much better now too. Its nice to have the littlest one here, she is barely a year and is soo soo cute. She does not walk yet and does not want to walk either!!! but she is a sweety, gives kisses says hi when she sees me. After a long weekend of camping I came home and she gave me a bear hug saying grrrr and she squeezed me tight. She learned that one from watching her brother.
I am enjoying being Unci!!!
Monday, June 21, 2010
Still Here
Missing mama is still here, and GS could not more happy. She also got a job and seems to be happy herself, now if we could get her man to get a job all will be well. GS has his moments but all in all he has come around and is actually talking to me and sitting on my lap. We had a great weekend swimming in the new pool. He just keeps on having accidents in his pants don't know what that's about. I bought him a buzz lightyear doll and one morning he got up, sat on my lap and said "Unci, I love my buzz lightyear" it was so cute.
His little sister is here also she will be a year in a month, she is so cute and chunky, took her a minute to get used to me, but she follows me around every where now. All is well for now
His little sister is here also she will be a year in a month, she is so cute and chunky, took her a minute to get used to me, but she follows me around every where now. All is well for now
Friday, May 28, 2010
Missing Mama is Back
Last weekend I called the girls daddy to see if he would come and help me with some projects and low and behold who is he with Missing Mama. I asked for her to talk to GS and he just cried and cried saying he wanted to see her. Then I got on the line and asked why she had not seen her son in 6 weeks. She said because I was mad at her! I told her that had nothing to do with her and her son and don't use me as the reason.
When they got there she then asked if she could still come to Pine Ridge. I told her yes, but she brought the girls dad with her. Not only that she got the youngest baby back, little Button Eyes. She is so cute, 10 months old now and has not been with her mother since she was 4 months old.
GS very angry at me.... and very emotional. I only hope this works, but of course she has not went to treatment. We will see. I am not about to give up the guardianship until she has shown her changed self. I will not put him at risk again.
So we are all holed up in my little apartment. I cleaned out my spare room for them, and re arranged my life again. We shall see, with lots of prayers it works out ok.
When they got there she then asked if she could still come to Pine Ridge. I told her yes, but she brought the girls dad with her. Not only that she got the youngest baby back, little Button Eyes. She is so cute, 10 months old now and has not been with her mother since she was 4 months old.
GS very angry at me.... and very emotional. I only hope this works, but of course she has not went to treatment. We will see. I am not about to give up the guardianship until she has shown her changed self. I will not put him at risk again.
So we are all holed up in my little apartment. I cleaned out my spare room for them, and re arranged my life again. We shall see, with lots of prayers it works out ok.
Thursday, May 20, 2010
Another Week and Some Heartache
Just put the sad grandson to bed. He has been peeing in his pants all week. Tonight he was so quiet in the bedroom I thought he was asleep. I put him in the bathtub and went into the room to get his PJs together and there on the floor right in front of where he was sitting was a picture of him and his mom. Just broke my heart and apparently his too. After bath he came to me and looked so sad asking me to read him his book. I asked him if he was said and he nodded yes. I sat him in my lap and asked him if he missed his mom and he started to cry. I just held him and let him cry, telling him that his mama did love him and I was sorry she had not seen him in a while. I told him she was having a hard time and that's why she was gone. But I kept reassuring him she did love him.
My poor little guy : ( so sad that he has to go through this, so sad that she is drinking and caught up in the power of the bottle. I know only to well what this was about, I too have had my battles with alcohol and it about destroyed me. It was so long ago.... that I sometimes forget the grip it can have on your life.
I wish I could help her, save her but I know that I can't. She will live with the memory of not being their for her children for the rest of her life. They will also have to live with this for the rest of their lives.
I have had this boy for 7 months now. She has not seen him since April 16th when she dropped him off as he screamed and cried for her. She called my son last week, drunk he said. I asked if she was crying around but he said no she sounded pretty happy. When he asked her why she had not seen grandson she said it was because I was mad at her. Well she can use all the excuses she wants, she just does not want or can stop her self destructive behavior.
The only thing that saves me is him, having to care for him and love him and knowing above all he safe.
My poor little guy : ( so sad that he has to go through this, so sad that she is drinking and caught up in the power of the bottle. I know only to well what this was about, I too have had my battles with alcohol and it about destroyed me. It was so long ago.... that I sometimes forget the grip it can have on your life.
I wish I could help her, save her but I know that I can't. She will live with the memory of not being their for her children for the rest of her life. They will also have to live with this for the rest of their lives.
I have had this boy for 7 months now. She has not seen him since April 16th when she dropped him off as he screamed and cried for her. She called my son last week, drunk he said. I asked if she was crying around but he said no she sounded pretty happy. When he asked her why she had not seen grandson she said it was because I was mad at her. Well she can use all the excuses she wants, she just does not want or can stop her self destructive behavior.
The only thing that saves me is him, having to care for him and love him and knowing above all he safe.
Thursday, May 6, 2010
Weeks Have Passed
Weeks have passed and not a word from Missing Mama, she has not seen him since April 16th, and at first I tried calling no answer to the numbers I had for her. I just decided to stop, because if she wants to see him she will come around. Grandson has not said much about her. The other night he was sitting in his little spider man chair, talking on the plastic cell phone telling about his new "cool rock" he had gotten from a co worker of mine. He said "What you doing mom?" telling her it was "cool." About a week ago we had went out to supper and he would not eat his soup, I turned to him and said that makes me sad, he then.. with tears in his eyes "My mom makes me sad" he then became so upset, crying and could not be consoled.
Life can be so hard, but most days he is a dear. He is a three year old boy and acts like one!! Running, laughing, playing with his beloved cars. He has his gentle moments too, where he just comes up to me and kisses me on the cheek, saying "I love you Unci." I am better now, not so upset maybe getting used to idea, and just having to move on for both of us. I can't let her ruin my life or his. So move on Unci, move on!!
Life can be so hard, but most days he is a dear. He is a three year old boy and acts like one!! Running, laughing, playing with his beloved cars. He has his gentle moments too, where he just comes up to me and kisses me on the cheek, saying "I love you Unci." I am better now, not so upset maybe getting used to idea, and just having to move on for both of us. I can't let her ruin my life or his. So move on Unci, move on!!
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