Just put the sad grandson to bed. He has been peeing in his pants all week. Tonight he was so quiet in the bedroom I thought he was asleep. I put him in the bathtub and went into the room to get his PJs together and there on the floor right in front of where he was sitting was a picture of him and his mom. Just broke my heart and apparently his too. After bath he came to me and looked so sad asking me to read him his book. I asked him if he was said and he nodded yes. I sat him in my lap and asked him if he missed his mom and he started to cry. I just held him and let him cry, telling him that his mama did love him and I was sorry she had not seen him in a while. I told him she was having a hard time and that's why she was gone. But I kept reassuring him she did love him.
My poor little guy : ( so sad that he has to go through this, so sad that she is drinking and caught up in the power of the bottle. I know only to well what this was about, I too have had my battles with alcohol and it about destroyed me. It was so long ago.... that I sometimes forget the grip it can have on your life.
I wish I could help her, save her but I know that I can't. She will live with the memory of not being their for her children for the rest of her life. They will also have to live with this for the rest of their lives.
I have had this boy for 7 months now. She has not seen him since April 16th when she dropped him off as he screamed and cried for her. She called my son last week, drunk he said. I asked if she was crying around but he said no she sounded pretty happy. When he asked her why she had not seen grandson she said it was because I was mad at her. Well she can use all the excuses she wants, she just does not want or can stop her self destructive behavior.
The only thing that saves me is him, having to care for him and love him and knowing above all he safe.
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